Being Off the Grid

Last week I made the decision to cancel my cell phone. I intended on starting a new plan with a new company. I thought at least I would have my Internet while I didn't have a phone. I had the Internet alright but no computer(long story, but know that I am a spazz). I was alright the first day off the grid. I cleaned my house, watched tv, worked out, and did my hair. Very productive for one day. But when I had to enter the real world it hit me like a ton of bricks! I was alone out in the world. All I had was an old phone just in case I needed to call 911.

It's a weird feeling to not have a cell phone in this day in age. I felt extremely disconnected and vulnerable. I'm already paranoid but I couldn't help thinking about the what ifs. Crime is high in the city. What if l fell victim to some kind of misfortune, how would I notify my friends and family?! The thought was overwhelming. It's crazy that things like that constantly ran through my mind.

I also wondered what all I was missing. I'm sure people were still texting me despite my various tweets and facebook statuses. Sometimes I felt like I might go crazy from the lack of communication. It was such a drastic change for me.

I don't think that I could do it again unless I absolutely have to. It seems I have become dependent to technology. So sad, but true.

The Lies People Tell

As long as I live I don't think that I will ever understand why people feel they have to lie to someone to keep them. A couple of months ago I started talking to someone romantically, we weren't dating but we were close to it. I suppose we were seeing each other. It was cool for a couple weeks but then the novelty wore off and it occurred to me that the relationship wouldn't go anywhere. We decided to end things after a few months of seeing each other. Honey had some objections with the way I conduct myself while dating.

I tend to follow a few simple rules when dating. First, nothing becomes official before 6 months of continuous dating. Second, no hanky panky. A girl can't just give her goodies to any old fool that thinks she's cute. Third and maybe most important, PLAY YOUR POSITION. This means that if I am not officially your girlfriend I'm not going to act like it.

Allow me to expand on that last rule. I would expect honesty from anyone in my life, but if I am just getting to know you honesty is mandatory. How can you build a relationship on lies? It just isn't possible. So if during the course of courting a question is asked, i.e. are you seeing anyone else, answer truthfully because yes it could hurt any chances with me or it might not even matter. But the decision should be left to me to make. I don't get why the truth is so hard. When I catch someone in a lie that is the end. I don't deal with liars! Growing up we got punished for lying because our parents believed that children who lie, steal; children who steal kill. It might be a bit of an exaggeration, but really. If you can lie straight to someones face what else can you do?!

The lies that people tell and the deceit is the main reason I remain single. I don't trust many people and as more and more people in my life fall into that category I am left suspecting everyone. I am honest to a fault and I don't mind the same quality from people in my life. I find it refreshing. Contrary to what my ex told me after our breakup, lies don't protect the person they are told to. They only protect the person lying. Despite all the BS that I've encountered while dating I still remain a hopeless romantic. I'm sure Prince Charming will ride in any moment and save me from the evil world of dating. Ha!

The White Man's Bitch

Umm...in a way I see what she was trying to get at. In order to reach the people you have to give the people what they want. I have a problem with the N word anyway, let alone using it to refer to Malcolm X. It caught me off guard a little. Maybe she should have tried spoken word or something. Anyhow, listen to the words.