Being Off the Grid

Last week I made the decision to cancel my cell phone. I intended on starting a new plan with a new company. I thought at least I would have my Internet while I didn't have a phone. I had the Internet alright but no computer(long story, but know that I am a spazz). I was alright the first day off the grid. I cleaned my house, watched tv, worked out, and did my hair. Very productive for one day. But when I had to enter the real world it hit me like a ton of bricks! I was alone out in the world. All I had was an old phone just in case I needed to call 911.

It's a weird feeling to not have a cell phone in this day in age. I felt extremely disconnected and vulnerable. I'm already paranoid but I couldn't help thinking about the what ifs. Crime is high in the city. What if l fell victim to some kind of misfortune, how would I notify my friends and family?! The thought was overwhelming. It's crazy that things like that constantly ran through my mind.

I also wondered what all I was missing. I'm sure people were still texting me despite my various tweets and facebook statuses. Sometimes I felt like I might go crazy from the lack of communication. It was such a drastic change for me.

I don't think that I could do it again unless I absolutely have to. It seems I have become dependent to technology. So sad, but true.

The Lies People Tell

As long as I live I don't think that I will ever understand why people feel they have to lie to someone to keep them. A couple of months ago I started talking to someone romantically, we weren't dating but we were close to it. I suppose we were seeing each other. It was cool for a couple weeks but then the novelty wore off and it occurred to me that the relationship wouldn't go anywhere. We decided to end things after a few months of seeing each other. Honey had some objections with the way I conduct myself while dating.

I tend to follow a few simple rules when dating. First, nothing becomes official before 6 months of continuous dating. Second, no hanky panky. A girl can't just give her goodies to any old fool that thinks she's cute. Third and maybe most important, PLAY YOUR POSITION. This means that if I am not officially your girlfriend I'm not going to act like it.

Allow me to expand on that last rule. I would expect honesty from anyone in my life, but if I am just getting to know you honesty is mandatory. How can you build a relationship on lies? It just isn't possible. So if during the course of courting a question is asked, i.e. are you seeing anyone else, answer truthfully because yes it could hurt any chances with me or it might not even matter. But the decision should be left to me to make. I don't get why the truth is so hard. When I catch someone in a lie that is the end. I don't deal with liars! Growing up we got punished for lying because our parents believed that children who lie, steal; children who steal kill. It might be a bit of an exaggeration, but really. If you can lie straight to someones face what else can you do?!

The lies that people tell and the deceit is the main reason I remain single. I don't trust many people and as more and more people in my life fall into that category I am left suspecting everyone. I am honest to a fault and I don't mind the same quality from people in my life. I find it refreshing. Contrary to what my ex told me after our breakup, lies don't protect the person they are told to. They only protect the person lying. Despite all the BS that I've encountered while dating I still remain a hopeless romantic. I'm sure Prince Charming will ride in any moment and save me from the evil world of dating. Ha!

The White Man's Bitch

Umm...in a way I see what she was trying to get at. In order to reach the people you have to give the people what they want. I have a problem with the N word anyway, let alone using it to refer to Malcolm X. It caught me off guard a little. Maybe she should have tried spoken word or something. Anyhow, listen to the words.

A Tragic Case

I am honestly sick of seeing displays of youth violence like this. If you do a search on Youtube you could find hundreds of videos like this. It is absolutely appalling. On the one hand, the person that captured the video should be chastised for it because instead of calling authorities they chose to stand around and watch. They didn't even give the tape to police. The took it to the news station, which then turned it over to police. On the other hand if they had not filmed the melee authorities probably would have never caught the assailants. The Young man that was jumped by the group and left on the ground later died. He wasn't even involved in the scuffle. Three teenagers were charged with his murder. They are all under the age of 20 and there lives are over just like that.

I have witnessed many a brawl in my years. Although I don't find them the least bit interesting, many of my peers do. They stand around shouting, excited, fueling the violence. Once authorities show up they disperse as if nothing had ever happened. No one makes any attempt to notify authorities of the situation or even to see if the victim was alright. Its funny my coworker and I were just having a conversation today about middle school beef. Beef that's so old no one currently in the school knows why they don't like the other school, but they just don't. This is perfect example.

It really is a shame how much disregard todays youth have for human life. It could have been any one of the bystanders that were standing around that lost their lives. Whatever happened to love thy neighbor or the golden rule. Its golden for a reason. I think it is now up to that community to stop the nonsense. How many innocent children have to lose their lives to violence before it is recognized as a problem?

I just get so sad to see young kids in this type of situation. Throwing their lives away trying to prove how tough they are. But I'm not even sorry for them. It doesn't take a genius to know that stepping on someones head isn't a good idea, or beating someone upside the head with a 2x4. Hopefully the rest of the brawlers will get caught and face the appropriate consequences.

Sad Situation

I saw a clip of this couple on the Today Show earlier this week. I think this is one of the most tragic things that could happen to a family. All they wanted was to have a baby, which they will but they have to give it up. I would lose my mind! Aren't medical facilities supposed make sure mistakes such as this don't happen? Thank goodness it was just a baby and not the wrong blood or medicine. This couple should be commended for what they are doing. Another couple might take the situation into court and fight for the right to the child. God Bless the kind-hearted.

The Truth Is...

The truth is that I have been on the path of changing my life this past year. I haven't been very dilligent in my efforts. I take long periods off, eat crap most of the time, and sometimes I drink like a fish! I feel guilty when I do these things because I know that the power to change is within me. Since I got sick a couple of weeks ago I have played around in the gym. My shoes are the only thing that motivate me. They are cute and blu & white! With the new season of Biggest Loser airing I'm feeling sincere shame. I am only a couple Whopper Jrs. away from seriously needing to be featured on the show. It actually scares me. I couldn't take not being able to live the quality of life that I enjoy. I fear that I will never hear the end of my mother's complaints about my weight. That in itself is enough to drive me crazy.

But as of last week I have lost that zest for the run. I blame my Ipod shuffle. It keeps malfunctioning which puts me in a pissy mood while I am trying to get my run on. Whoever thought to put the controls on the earphone itself is a moron(I'm just saying)! I need to find water resistant earphones quick. I still intend on running the Ukrops Monument 10k race in May. I have a lot of time to get myself ready but I just miss the feeling I used to get lacing up. I think I'm in need of motivation. I might also need a partner but I hesitate to add someone else into my regimen because it might slow me down.

I plan to get out of this funk by Tuesday(the next time I workout). I have a nice little massage scheduled for tomorrow and after that I will catch up on rest. Grocery shopping will also take place this week so I can get some good old healthy eating in. Gonna get the boat back in the sea!

Ignorance is bliss, but not in this case

These nincompoops! The girl driving is actual excited to see cops come at her with guns and cameras because "they gon' be on tv". Why in the hell would you think someone would leave their doors unlocked with their keys inside a car?! It reeks of setup to me but then I have always been a thinkin' woman!