The Truth Is...

The truth is that I have been on the path of changing my life this past year. I haven't been very dilligent in my efforts. I take long periods off, eat crap most of the time, and sometimes I drink like a fish! I feel guilty when I do these things because I know that the power to change is within me. Since I got sick a couple of weeks ago I have played around in the gym. My shoes are the only thing that motivate me. They are cute and blu & white! With the new season of Biggest Loser airing I'm feeling sincere shame. I am only a couple Whopper Jrs. away from seriously needing to be featured on the show. It actually scares me. I couldn't take not being able to live the quality of life that I enjoy. I fear that I will never hear the end of my mother's complaints about my weight. That in itself is enough to drive me crazy.

But as of last week I have lost that zest for the run. I blame my Ipod shuffle. It keeps malfunctioning which puts me in a pissy mood while I am trying to get my run on. Whoever thought to put the controls on the earphone itself is a moron(I'm just saying)! I need to find water resistant earphones quick. I still intend on running the Ukrops Monument 10k race in May. I have a lot of time to get myself ready but I just miss the feeling I used to get lacing up. I think I'm in need of motivation. I might also need a partner but I hesitate to add someone else into my regimen because it might slow me down.

I plan to get out of this funk by Tuesday(the next time I workout). I have a nice little massage scheduled for tomorrow and after that I will catch up on rest. Grocery shopping will also take place this week so I can get some good old healthy eating in. Gonna get the boat back in the sea!